Know what i've realized after a shamefully large number of years of existence? I suck at keeping in touch. I know, its kind of like "discovering" in the 11th standard that you are left handed, its not like life didnt give you enough opportunities to find out. But thats just it, i think life didnt. Being the kind of person who does more of her talking in her head, even if people have moved out of my life's current window, they are very much a part of it inside. So if you ask me, i'll never admit to being out of touch. Plus, there has always been a current set that takes care of life outside my head.
What then lead me to the realization of left handedness? Remember that 10 green bottles standing on a wall rhyme? Well, it looks like someone seems to be very systematically playing that game with the people in my life. People are "accidentally" falling off. Not anything new, but in the past one green bottle would always be replaced by another. Different, to be sure. but essentially it would still be a green bottle. Now for variety of reasons the replacements have stopped. Or rather, just gotten bizarre. Sometimes there is just a bottle cap where a bottle should be. Sometimes its a green eyed bug. And empty space, lots of that too. And some that i know are green bottles, even though they dont look much like one right now, if i could just get it together to work on them a bit. I could of course go pick up the fallen bottles, none of whom, touch wood, have actually broken because of the fall. Which is when i realize how much hard work that seems like, how used i have got to drifting through life, to taking whatever it gives, to not sticking my hand out and asking for more.
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I have to grudgingly admit that i fall in the same "drift" category too..i have lost many a good frnd due to lack of contact (i can never manage the universally accepted "right amt", which comes so naturally to others)...lots of failed resolutions of strapping up and grabbing more of life. :(
Its a stupid stupid cycle, isnt it? Realize you are going to waste, pump yourself to do something about it, lose steam and in no time go back to being wasted. Sometimes i think i should just accept the fact that i am a buffalo, meant to laze around in water all day and live happily ever after.
sigh..i would gladly be a buffalo if i accepted it and lived "happily" ..the pain lies there..known prob but no will to fix it = discontent which nags n nibbles. :P
Seriously, all middle paths should be abolished. Rather, if you walk more than two steps on it, life should automatically push you to one side.
hmm serious discussion..
but IMHO time won't erode a real frndship..
Wait till you get old enough to know what time means, bachche :P
You are kind of right, though. With some people you can pick up where you left off.
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